It's okay to be happy - this is one of my daily reminders. People who know me would think of it weird, as I'm generally a happy person that's all smiles and laughs. But sometimes, I have that irrational fear that if I'm too happy now, then something bad is going to happen soon. To balance it out, to jerk me back into reality, whatever you call it, I feel like I'm constantly waiting for the other shoe to fall. So I'll find an excuse to find a flaw in things, to not let people get too close, and I'll tell myself that it doesn't matter if I'm extremely happy, at least I won't be waiting for the bad to swallow me up.
It's a safe way of living - it's also a coward's way out. I can't say that I'm about to go out and conquer the world soon, but hey, being happy is a start, yeah?
So you don't have to wait for the other shoe to fall. You can be happy, over your grades, over your accomplishments, over having that extra cupcake. You only have one life and it's a darn waste if you're constantly looking over your shoulder.
With love, Daphne xIt's a safe way of living - it's also a coward's way out. I can't say that I'm about to go out and conquer the world soon, but hey, being happy is a start, yeah?
So you don't have to wait for the other shoe to fall. You can be happy, over your grades, over your accomplishments, over having that extra cupcake. You only have one life and it's a darn waste if you're constantly looking over your shoulder.
